MAMIS NO BOUKEN: ON JAPAN DAY 3

Ok guys! Let’s continue what we have just started. After going through with our enjoyable first day and second day, let’s move to the next day for a far more exciting moments.

Day 3. The Imperial Palace and Imperial East Garden Tour plus Asakusa Shrine

We did fail in going inside the Imperial Palace on my first visit, and only came to Imperial East Garden. This time, together with my friends, we did see and be with other tourist inside the palace.

You need to get your visit be scheduled before going to the palace. Thanks to a certain blog, we got this idea beforehand. Through visiting the website of the imperial household agency almost all dates were full, lucky for us, the date the we planned to visit the said place has more slot for the 5 of us. Below is the print out that was send by the agency to be presented in front of Kikyo-mon Gate:

NOTICE OF PERMIT FOR VISIT TO THE IMPERIAL PALACE IN TOKYO

Date of Application/2017-02-04

Permission Number/702131526

DATE/TIME 2017-02-16 10:00

PARTY NAME Mamis

NUMBER OF VISITORS Total 5

NAME OF REPRESENTATIVE: Jomairah Mulay AGE 29 GENDER Female

[REMARKS]

  1. Please be at the ” Kikyo-mon Gate” entrance 10 minutes before your tour start time.
  2. Please bring a printed copy of this Notice of Permit on the tour day.If you can not print the permit number, please let the receptionist know your permit number.
  1. Please follow the instructions of the staff.
  2. The tour is approximately 75 minutes long, covering a distance of 2.2 kilometers (approx. 1.3 miles), and covers a limited portion of the Palace Grounds.
  3. The interior of the Palace is not included in the tour. An English audio guide is available at the Visitor’s House, Please ask the staff for further details.
  4. This permit is valid only for the members listed on the application form. All group members should bring a passport or other legal identification. If a member is unable to attend, please inform the staff when you arrive.
  5. Photography is allowed, but large group portraits are not permitted.
  6. Large bags, such as luggage, are not permitted on the tour.
  7. Visitors are requested to refrain from smoking while in the Palace Ground.
  8. Tour is subject to cancellation without notice due to unforeseen circumstances and Palace obligations.
  9. If you want to cancell your tour, please contact the Imperial Household Agency.
  10. You are permitted to visit the East Gardens of the Imperial Palace while it is open.

[ACCESS]

JR ; 15minutes’ walk from Tokyo Station(Marunouchi Central Exit)

Subway; 10minutes’ walk from Nijubashi-mae Station(Chiyoda Line Exit 6)

10minutes’ walk from Otemachi Station(Mita Line Exit D2)

*Cars and bicycles are not allowed to park.

* Please let us know your opinions and comments.

Email:kokyosankan-info@kunaicho.go.jp

Upon arriving at  Kikyo-mon gate, you will be instructed to wait. After a while at exactly 10:00 AM we are now permitted to go inside and they let us gather to certain room.IMAGE 1

They then gave us hand outs, audio, and did informed us to go to the comfort room since the tour will take an hour and a half. Some of the visitors did do so, and that also goes for us. After a while they instructed us to line up as to start the tour guide. So here’s some sneak peek.

They didn’t let us go inside the buildings that were seen here. However, the scene was really great. The only thing it concerns me about this tour guide is that the personnel who handle this and speaks about the palace speaks Niponggo. Most of us tourist couldn’t understand it, except those tourist handed with an audio and the Japanese people. How nice will it be if they would hire someone to speak English for us tourist to get even more understanding about the place.

 Our next stop was the Imperial East Garden which is just near the palace. We did visit this place hoping for a cherry blossom, and when we came there it’s still a plum. Though it’s not yet the full bloom cherry blossom, my friends did loved it and I was astonished again for the second time around.

The next stop was the Asakusa Shrine. We didn’t get the opportunity to do a souvenir shopping for our friends and family from earlier trip. To our surprise, in this area there were so many store that sells different stuffs. Even hello kitty was there, which my friend keeps on talking about, wanted to buy for her co-officemates for a souvenir.  From all those products, it’s hard to pick which one to buy. And the most surprising thing is that, I did get to experience eating a Fish Bread!

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I couldn’t believe it but I just did. I’ve been looking for this from my first trip, and even when I was then at Osaka and Kyoto, I didn’t get the chance to find one. It did took me to go to Tokyo for the second time around to eat this kind of bread. I just love the one with chocolate, and cheese flavour. It’s Oishi! Red Bean is something didn’t pass to my taste buds. Sorry.

So going back, another store that we were curious about is the Halal Restaurant called, Naritaya Halal.IMAGE 10

It cost us an hour to find this place. And it’s a popular resto for the Muslim tourist which cause us to wait up in line to be entertained. After waiting for a half a hour, I ordered a Ramen worth 1,200 yen.

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In fairness, my tummy is really satisfied and full after eating this ramyunJ I would recommend for those Muslim people who would love to eat some ramen. And just to let you know guyz, according to a Japan citizen, Asakusa is an area where most of the restaurant are halal. You need to grab a copy of a brochure at a guided tourist office to see it, and choose.

After experiencing ramen, we did planned to find a for rent Kimono. But due to some unpredicted event, we did delayed this plan for about an hour.  At around 5:15 pm, we hurried it up to find one, but most of the for rent Kimono House closed at 6:00 pm and didn’t cater us. Fortunately, one of the store recommend us to this certain shop, who provides a for rent Kimono until 7:00 PM. Without any further ado, we started to look for that store and ask some nearby citizen to help us out how to get there. It take us a minutes since what we’re looking for were just nearby and we didn’t notice it ahead. We directly went to the second floor of the building were ONE is located. As the elevator open its door, it took us by surprise by all the KIMONOS on standby waiting to be rented out. The female care taker told us, that it will take them 45 minutes to get us dressed, and cleared to us that it will be less hour to use the kimonos. After explaining those, we did told them that even for a less hour, we wanted to  experience wearing the outfit. Instead of doing it for 45 minutes, they did it less than that. As per observation, dressing a Kimono really take things complicated since it takes you to be dressed up layer by layer. This how it goes for us.

Thanks for the ONE SHOP for letting us wear this beautiful Kimono even just for an hour. Dreams do come true.

 

MAMIS NO BOUKEN: Japan Day 1 and 2 Adventure

Let’s continue our adventure from here on. I will then enumerate the things we did experienced from that trip as to shorten the long travel home.

DAY 1: I did go back to Shibuya Crossing Line. As always, shibuya is the utmost busiest crossing line in the whole world, and Hachiko stands near it as always as he does

Me and my co-officemates did went here the previous, but the difference is that  this time, together with my friends, did a little bit of sightseeing around shibuya.  It’s a bit confusing at first, but the whole place is a totally awesome. I bit it would be much better if you go around the place in a daylight.

While walking down the street, I was so surprised to see this store nearby.

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It’s a Disney store.  I was looking for it through websites and did even search for the possible location of the store, but never thought that it would be in front of us that moment. Location is Zip code 150-0042, Humax Pavilion Shibuya Koen Dori, 20-15 Udagawa-cho, Shibuya-ku, Tokyo. We did buy our tickets in advance for our trip ticket at Disney Land

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DAY 2: It’s a Mt Fuji day. The last time I went here at Mt. Fuji was kind of cold and didn’t show up until the end. We did go here through Hakone Line. However this time around, we choose to go through Kawaguchi Line.

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Thanks to Google Map we did find our way going to the rendezvous point.  After arriving there, I was then so excited to go to Kachi Kachi Ropeway. According to some reviews, this place is a nice place to watch the mount fuji, and it has a story to tell but to our dismay the place was closed then. I was so sad about this, but what can I do about this? So, we then headed to our next trip, ride a boat around Kawaguchi river.

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To my surprise, Mt Fuji was absolutely astonishing, marvellous and so beautiful that day. I could not describe it any better than those adjective I did mentioned. To give you a glimpse, here it is

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Isn’t it so beautiful? How thankful I am to be there at a very picture-perfect moment. Now, here I am. I don’t blame Japanese people to be mesmerized with this delightful view. It gives a special feeling, a day to remember. We took our chance to grasp the view inside our memory from a 30 minutes boat sailing experience, and we always find ourselves in awe.

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After the boat sailing, we thought of experiencing snow in this time of the year. Philippines is a tropical country, and snow is a big no no in our place, and we highly anticipated to experience this. However, it didn’t go as planned, yet snow was all over Kawaguchi side of the road. Happiness isn’t all about meeting our expectation, but finding it even in a smallest aspect of it. Most of us really enjoyed it, especially those three.

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An hour of playing snow outside, we did drop some of our energy, ended up looking for a resto. From this quiet neighbourhood of Kawaguchiko, “Sun Poppo Coffee and Restaurant” was the place where we could find answering our hungry tummy.


We amazingly enjoyed staying near Mt Fuji thru Kawaguchiko. Before ending this Day 2, I would really love to share this figures we did find along the way.

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I find this very artistic, but I could not find the meaning out of this figures. While looking around, I did came across a tablet with a writings that is plastered in a stone wall about the whole meaning of this, and it states:

THE SYMBOL STATUE OF KAWAGUCHIKO

This bronze statue is one of the last and finest masterpieces of Japan’s greatest sculptor, the late Saibo Kitamura. Kitamura visited Kawaguchiko at the age of 101 and was deeply moved by the magnificence of our surrounding mountain scenery as well as the mysterious quality of the lake itself. This statue is the product of the two long and laborious years he then spent in an effort to give this feeling of wonder form.

The vase portion of the statue represents Lake Kawaguchiko, fountain of wisdom, hope, life and plenty, in other words the source of life in all things. As for the two female figures dancing around the vase, the woman on the left represents “positive” and the woman on the right represents “negative”. The eternally varying dreams of these two opposites come together to become one in the “source” flowing on to symbolize the never-ending occurrence and renewal of life. The work is a truly powerful expression of man’s eternal search for the essence of the universe to which he aspires, given life and form through the genius and skill of this great master.

3/10/1987 The Town of Kawaguchiko.

Day 3 and 4 will be posted on the next blog

Japan: Once upon a Dream!

I cant help my feelings to wander whenever I think about that place. Its been a huge impact for me. I can still feel the coldness of the wind that touches my skin. The spring that brings happiness inside one’s heart. The cherry blossoms that was in full bloom, that I could never imagine to see it in person for real. The last  but not the least, the people who were generous enough to show us kindness while on travel. I feel so wonderful and grateful. These were the things that I did experience:

  1. Visit places such as Imperial East Garden in Tokyo, Osaka Castle, Fushimi Inari in Kyoto and many others.

Osaka Castle

Fushimi Inari

Mesmerized by the Sakura Tree

Mesmerized by the Sakura Tree

2.  First time to see so many people in one place, such as Ueno Park, enjoying their activities with their friends, family, or special someone.

Ueno Park

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3. Tried a vending machine

Glad to tried vending machine as what Ive seen it in movie and anime.

Glad to tried vending machine as what Ive seen it in movie and anime.

4. Wear a long skirt for the first time in my adulthood during my visit at Harajuku.

@ Harajuku

@ Harajuku

5. See and taste amazing sweet cakes.

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6. Eat my first ever cold ramen.

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7. Visit a Mosque in Japan, such Camii Mosque in Tokyo

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8. Frequent ride in a train and running along fast to hop in.

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9. Get lost and wander the place.

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10. First Japanese guy to offer his sit while we’re on a crowded train. sweet 🙂 (So bad, I didn’t had a picture with him)

Lets pretend this is HIM, shall we?

Lets pretend this is HIM, shall we?

11. Feel coldness in my hand that seems to numb.

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12. Ride with Captain Hook at Hakone.
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13. Eat my first onigiri at nearby 7/11 located somewhere in Nishi Nippori.

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Onigiri

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14. First time to feel my heart pounding over excitement seeing the famous crossing in Shibuya Station.

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15. Meet Hachiko

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16. Stay at train station over one hour, and happy to observe Japanese people

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17. First night bus travel from Tokyo to Osaka (vice versa) for almost 7-8 hours

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18. Roaming around Akihabara alone in more or less 30 minutes, and see the wander of this place.

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19. Fulfill my dream of taking a bath in bath tub. (The most relaxing ever, especially when you dream about it long before.)

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20. First to eat the so called “Takoyaki”.

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21. Be at Osaka Castle with so much history inside it.

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22. Be at the tallest building called floating Garden observatory, and try walking at the Lumi Sky walk

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23. First time to see a street performing monkey

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24. One with nature through visiting the bamboo path in Kyoto.

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25. First time to be at the Top of the Mountain at Fushimi Inari

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26. Touched a Chubby Japanese Cat in Kyoto :p

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27. Had a memorable photos with Japan citizens.

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So, here you go guys!I will never stop longing to go back there at Japan. I’m hoping I’ll be back soon, and the next time, I will include Hokkaido in my Itinerary:)

P.S: Its been so long that I haven’t post in here, but hopefully it will be full articles before the end year.

The following days after December 31, 2014.

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Another year is going at its end, and newly tide is now on its way to make everything different. Another year for celebrations, and year of adventure in our life. Do you think something will change in one’s life in this year? I guess so, because each of us has a destiny to fulfill, and what that is, is a surprise that we need to look forward to.

I’ve been browsing at wordpress.com, encoding the 2015 on the tag part to search for some resolution coming from other people. Many of them showed up different resolution in their life were you can find them as somewhat pleasing. People do has a way of doing things, hoping it will be the best. And yet, it is somewhat wonderful since it gives hope to one’s heart that somewhere in their life in this year, they change something for good. We are not perfect, we do make mistakes. It is an inevitable circumstances that human do have this kind of nature. You and I is not excuse for this true concept, but despite of this, I would say human is an awesome creation. Trying to make up for something that has gone wrong in their past life.

From previous years, we happened to learn so many things from our happy memories, and mostly from our sad memories. Usually, the sad one was something that triggers our loneliness. The deepest part of us, that saying “Someone help me, I don’t know what to do!” However, we want to disguise our weakness through showing others that “I am strong” which in reality, we gain cracks inside our heart once we felt the pain of being sad for something that had happened. Moving on is something that is hard. As they say “you must let go.” But let’s admit, this thing is a painful part in our life, yet we need it for us to free ourselves. Most of the human, and thousands of thousands of human even in the past felt this feeling in a most unexpected way. Circumstances always make us feel this pain before a person come along in his/her twilight zone in his/her life, and I am not exempted to that. I was born in an average family. At first we don’t have anything, but we do have each other for almost years, I never gained any problems except from my school thing. However, after 23 years of living, I did encounter one thing, my ex-husband. We broke up days ago, which I stated in my past blog. I don’t want to go into details, but as I felt I am not yet transcending myself in letting go. He is the first person who made me feel the true pain is. Truly, loving a person is something that will cause pain and that you will find yourself in the weakest form once it’s broken, and I did. I felt miserable being together with him. One thing is, it flash right into my face, the real weakness inside me and the reflection of who I truly am. Instead of encouraging me, he didn’t helped any of it, but instead he keep on piling up so many things that I couldn’t handle. It is like, our relationship is a curse that we need to be part ways. I feel terribly sad about it, and I am always asking if when will be the day I need to let go of this pain? I am hoping that next year, will be the time I will learn to let go.

Aside from this, I list all of the things I planned to do this year 2015 and here it is:

               (I need to upload my mind mapping sooner)

                My plan somewhat scramble, but mind mapping is indeed a good things in planning. It is missed up, but I still need to arrange it within this two days before the year ends. I want to implement this plan by January, hopefully. So In order give a view in my plan, let’s summarize it shall we? Let’s take them one by one.

  1. Spiritual – This is the most important priorities that I needed to accomplish. I’ve planning on to grow this part of me, yet I couldn’t for the fact that myself wouldn’t. I might say that it is my nafs or desire that make this thing out of my priorities. However, this year I will try the best as I can to be within my goal. May Allah guide me, and give tawfiq inside my mind to fulfill this.
  2. Different path – I wouldn’t state this thing directly in here for I am certain that someone might see this blog which I want this to be safe yet. But I am planning to try a certain path that might lead me somewhere, and learn the things I needed.
  3. Travel – I really wanted to go to JAPAN. I am hoping that this year will be that significant year where I will be having an adventure in this said place.
  4. Going to School and learn – I will do this practical thing which I would like to go to if my second list will be operational, if not, I guess I have to look for another thing to fulfill this.
  5. Save Money- OMG! My weakness! For almost six years I’ve been using my salary extravagantly without saving anything. Look at me right now, I’m yet at the starting point to save something.
  6. Read Books- I am not much of a reader, but I do believe that once you find a book that you will enjoy, it is like sweet cake, that you will grave for it always.
  7. Self-Development – I am my young adult stage, and I felt I’m still young child inside. Selfish and self-centered. I don’t want to go on like this. I want to mature and enhance myself with things that I needed the most.
  8. Exercise – I do this thing, but not that totally rigorous. I, particularly stop, go, stop and go with my exercise thing.

I am hoping that my list will be followed next year. Of course, it will depend on me. I do have a tendency to procrastinate, but as much as I can, time is an essence in living our lives. I guess, I’ve wasted too much time which I could not count them, if they did productive or not. Evaluating from my previews year, I guess none. However, I want to believe that I could do so many things in this year of the rum. I was watching “Once Upon a Time Series” and I could tell that what I’ve learned is to believe and have faith in all the things that I needed. I guess, I have to contemplate and meditate and ask myself from everything that had gone wrong, and things I couldn’t do. In this way I might find a better changes by next year. Live and Believe.

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TURNING POINT

I’ve never been used in counting days or whatever that comes my way. I guess, this 2014 was not the same with any kind of years that had passed. I can say it isn’t the fast pacing life that you could ever imagined, but changes did happened. I remember this following months;

January 2014 –     I was then very busy working out with my second course (i.e education)

February 2014 –    Attended a seminar in relation to Customer Service at Cagayan de Oro

March 2014 –        Continuing attending my school course

April 2014 –      Doing all the best I can to finish my requirements for the whole 6 subjects and even with the Field Studies instructed by our teachers in education.

May 2014 – Nothing happened much, I was kind of busy verifying our grades in St. Michael

June 2014 – I finally got my TOR in this course, and the next thing I did then was to file my papers for LET EXAM

July 2014 – I finally got out from COA and enter into the world of PagIBIG, and was assigned at Marawi Service Desk

August 2014 – It was then the 17th day of that month were I need to attend the Licensure Examination for Teachers. I was then so nervous that day, and everything keep dashing inside mind.

September 2014 – Nothing much happened here. I could say it’s my tranquil months.

October 2014 – on this month I received the result of the LET, and I’m thankful to God that I did pass! All my worries suddenly vanished and all was left was a thankful heart to God and to everyone for helping me out.

November 2014 – I was then so happy doing all my PRC related matters, and was then given the ticket for the big day “oath taking”

                For December 2014, I guess I want this month to be detailed, in the since that it was the current situation I was involved with until now. So, I was counting days from 1 to 12 day of December. Of course, I am not counting for the fact that it was then a Christmas, but it’s not. Christmas is not a practice in our religion, and I guess most of your guys, knows that Islam really don’t involve with this kind of celebration. Anyway, going back to my stories, while I was waiting, my parents decided to accompany me in the oath taking that was held last December 14, 2014 at Cagayan de Oro City. Before that day on December 13, 2014, we all went there, four of us to be exact (my parent, brother and of course yours truly). We did stayed at Tune Hotel. It was a very remarkable place. (In order for you to see what’s in this hotel, you can have a peek at the picture below.} I could say, I would waste some of my money staying in this hotel. Not only that you are comfortable with this hotel, and the staff were very accommodating but the building itself is very safe to anyone. If you are staying in Cagayan de Oro City, and would like to have a very comfortable stay in, I suggest to try their accommodation.

Tune Hotel

                On the day of oath taking, I was then very glad saying to myself; at last, all my efforts didn’t go to waste and here I am taking an oath for the first time in my life.” I was with the other hundreds of LET PASSER enjoying the feeling of gratitude and hoping for a new start to begin with. One thing, I was then thankful as well was that, a friend of mine was there. Seeing her in there was kind of assuring that what was happening then was real and it’s not a dream.

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                After the ceremony, we had a lunch date together with my family. As I stare at them, I would say it was a great thing to have a family bonding once in a while. Hope to have another session of this family bonding.

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                The next thing happen is having fun with my co office mate last December 19, 2014. It was a merry day, going off to work and having the whole night to enjoy together with our office family. We celebrated this at Villa Verde near at Gaisano Mall. As I mention early, that we don’t celebrate Christmas, but for the sake of camaraderie, we did joined them for this one night of fun.

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                Usually, fun always countered with sadness of thy heart. After a few days, I was disheartened by the news that strikes me. I saw it coming, but I never expect it would that be easy. I am healing my heart now. I don’t know when will be the day my heart would find peace, but I’m hoping it would be so soon. However, for the meantime, as the year ends, I am looking forward for the things that will happen by next year. Hope it will be much colorful than it is. HAPPY NEW YEAR to Everyone!

Paying Back

How could I not forget the day a friend of mine told me the great news of passing the Licensure Examination for Teachers last August 17, 2014? If I am not mistaken I did write something about my fear of failing to the said examination, however, I am highly overjoyed when my hard work did paid off. All of this is a big big big thank you from the creator above. Ya Allah, I am really indeed grateful for another gift you’ve send to me. And now, I am happily to say that we will be having our Oath Taking Tomorrow at Liceo de University, Cagayan de Oro around 6:30 in the morning.

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                I am happy about this. I guess, God has its own way of saying that he is still there looking out for us. I don’t know how I will thank Him for everything. Yet what I already’ve been doing is nothing but selfishness. I am writing this stuff while my feeling is a little bit down for the fact that I haven’t done anything. Even towards my parent whose there all the way from the very beginning of my life. I could not ask for more, as long as my family is there, everything is worth the risk. To think of, ever since the day I started working, I didn’t help much my own parents, and didn’t even helped them from any financial burdens. I guess, I was caught up with my own selfishness of doing whatever I wanted to do which I guess, doesn’t do me much except paying my own school billings while I am at this second course. Looking back, I am somewhat guilty of not paying back anything to them, and somewhat doing another selfish thing by next year, which is the fulfillment of my own dream of going to the Land of the Rising Sun. Along in this current situation, I am thinking of switching job if God permits me to do so. I could not support my parents and my brother from the income I have now. I fear that someday, I might need an emergency money to use for something crucial. I am the eldest and my brother is only 10 years younger than me, and mostly I don’t know if somebody or someone will help me by the time I will need it. Beforehand, I need to look for some ways to fully realize this. I don’t know if I can, but I’ll try. My qualification in teaching is not enough since my major from my undergrad isn’t related to education. So working on this thing will be going to square one. I don’t have teaching experience, and still have that weaknesses, but I need to try. Wish me good luck guys! I will post something soon in here.

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Dodging Fantasy, and walking into the reality!

I guess, the time has come in order for me to end it. It’s not healthy anymore. I would say, I am currently indignant with my marriage situation I am in, but the fact that it’s not working, I have to stop it. Several girls in this world really would like to have a lifetime partner. A prince that will save them from the distress of being single, and love that a girl ever wanted. A happy every after effect, that’s what we are looking for. However, facing the harsh reality, happily ever after is not for everyone, just like me. I guess, I expect too much, and I am craving for an affection from a guy but it was dreadful. Love that is one sided and no proof of getting back would only put me in too much pain. Being martyr is not an option for me. I’ve been doing this, like for 4 years of this marriage, but I am only hurting myself in this kind of set up. I can’t take the pain anymore, and being so negative toward myself caused me too much. A collateral damage for my act of denying that someday, somewhere, miracles would happen for us. However, what Nora Aunor’s state in one of her movies: “Walang himala, nasa tao ang himala!” (There is no miracle, only human do the miracles” I deceived myself from the illusion of miracles. A miracle that he would love me, and somehow forget that girl. But some guys do really choose what their heart felt, even breaking the law. So, I did say to myself “Okay, let’s end it. Move on from our own pace.” I wouldn’t deny that maybe at some point, I’ve done something wrong. This might be the reason; I never had been into a relationship, and I never had the chance to experience the boy-girl relationship, and that’s why ended up with nothing. Being single woman is the most appropriate for me. Yeah, I might be selfish in this kind of thinking, yet I am protecting myself from going to another relationship that would end into oblivion. Is it wrong to be born as NBCB? (No Boyfriend since Birth) I guess not. It is only that one’s heart cannot be altered once it loves someone else. I don’t care about what other people says, all that matter now is letting things in order to free everyone that is involve with this parental marriage. A marriage that keeps his mother in pain, my parents who always think about my feeling, and relatives who are concern about us. I guess, once I cut the string off, it would set everyone else free. He can marry the person he loves, and free me from tying into a doubtful future. This is for the best, “That’s what I am thinking about!”

As much as possible, I wouldn’t be so negative on this post, and even say something from this pain I am feeling now, but rather, I would like to share with you guys the positive wisdom I did get from this marriage.

  1. I did find that love is such a wonderful thing. It’s no wonder that some people are addict finding this one, as it makes you happy. It’s like every day is a beautiful day. It even gives you the positive vibes, putting a smile in your cheek, and looking forward seeing that someone in the morning.
  2. I did realize my weakness, and the person who I really am.
  3. I also see the super ego deep inside me, and that I don’t have the most control of it.

I guess, that’s the high light of positive marriage life I had. However, the pain and the stress I’ve gone through is something extraordinary. I never had a painful experience in my entire life than this one, and it then follow after the other. If you’re going to ask me either I will go with the same experience or not, I guess that’s enough. I would gladly accept the fact of being single ‘til the end. Yet, I am not closing any door since Allah (saw) always has something that He destined for us to do. To tell you the truth, I don’t really know how will I coop up with this thing, but I guess I just let time heal itself. Compared to the previews years, now, my heart is somewhat calmer than the previews. I am happy that my freedom will be returned to me, yet sad because He was my FIRST LOVE. A fairy tale that came so soon, and ended so soon. Life is always imperfect, but thanks God I am alive, and I have my family, and friends whose there no matter what.

Live life to the Fullest

Live life to the Fullest