The following days after December 31, 2014.

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Another year is going at its end, and newly tide is now on its way to make everything different. Another year for celebrations, and year of adventure in our life. Do you think something will change in one’s life in this year? I guess so, because each of us has a destiny to fulfill, and what that is, is a surprise that we need to look forward to.

I’ve been browsing at wordpress.com, encoding the 2015 on the tag part to search for some resolution coming from other people. Many of them showed up different resolution in their life were you can find them as somewhat pleasing. People do has a way of doing things, hoping it will be the best. And yet, it is somewhat wonderful since it gives hope to one’s heart that somewhere in their life in this year, they change something for good. We are not perfect, we do make mistakes. It is an inevitable circumstances that human do have this kind of nature. You and I is not excuse for this true concept, but despite of this, I would say human is an awesome creation. Trying to make up for something that has gone wrong in their past life.

From previous years, we happened to learn so many things from our happy memories, and mostly from our sad memories. Usually, the sad one was something that triggers our loneliness. The deepest part of us, that saying “Someone help me, I don’t know what to do!” However, we want to disguise our weakness through showing others that “I am strong” which in reality, we gain cracks inside our heart once we felt the pain of being sad for something that had happened. Moving on is something that is hard. As they say “you must let go.” But let’s admit, this thing is a painful part in our life, yet we need it for us to free ourselves. Most of the human, and thousands of thousands of human even in the past felt this feeling in a most unexpected way. Circumstances always make us feel this pain before a person come along in his/her twilight zone in his/her life, and I am not exempted to that. I was born in an average family. At first we don’t have anything, but we do have each other for almost years, I never gained any problems except from my school thing. However, after 23 years of living, I did encounter one thing, my ex-husband. We broke up days ago, which I stated in my past blog. I don’t want to go into details, but as I felt I am not yet transcending myself in letting go. He is the first person who made me feel the true pain is. Truly, loving a person is something that will cause pain and that you will find yourself in the weakest form once it’s broken, and I did. I felt miserable being together with him. One thing is, it flash right into my face, the real weakness inside me and the reflection of who I truly am. Instead of encouraging me, he didn’t helped any of it, but instead he keep on piling up so many things that I couldn’t handle. It is like, our relationship is a curse that we need to be part ways. I feel terribly sad about it, and I am always asking if when will be the day I need to let go of this pain? I am hoping that next year, will be the time I will learn to let go.

Aside from this, I list all of the things I planned to do this year 2015 and here it is:

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                My plan somewhat scramble, but mind mapping is indeed a good things in planning. It is missed up, but I still need to arrange it within this two days before the year ends. I want to implement this plan by January, hopefully. So In order give a view in my plan, let’s summarize it shall we? Let’s take them one by one.

  1. Spiritual – This is the most important priorities that I needed to accomplish. I’ve planning on to grow this part of me, yet I couldn’t for the fact that myself wouldn’t. I might say that it is my nafs or desire that make this thing out of my priorities. However, this year I will try the best as I can to be within my goal. May Allah guide me, and give tawfiq inside my mind to fulfill this.
  2. Different path – I wouldn’t state this thing directly in here for I am certain that someone might see this blog which I want this to be safe yet. But I am planning to try a certain path that might lead me somewhere, and learn the things I needed.
  3. Travel – I really wanted to go to JAPAN. I am hoping that this year will be that significant year where I will be having an adventure in this said place.
  4. Going to School and learn – I will do this practical thing which I would like to go to if my second list will be operational, if not, I guess I have to look for another thing to fulfill this.
  5. Save Money- OMG! My weakness! For almost six years I’ve been using my salary extravagantly without saving anything. Look at me right now, I’m yet at the starting point to save something.
  6. Read Books- I am not much of a reader, but I do believe that once you find a book that you will enjoy, it is like sweet cake, that you will grave for it always.
  7. Self-Development – I am my young adult stage, and I felt I’m still young child inside. Selfish and self-centered. I don’t want to go on like this. I want to mature and enhance myself with things that I needed the most.
  8. Exercise – I do this thing, but not that totally rigorous. I, particularly stop, go, stop and go with my exercise thing.

I am hoping that my list will be followed next year. Of course, it will depend on me. I do have a tendency to procrastinate, but as much as I can, time is an essence in living our lives. I guess, I’ve wasted too much time which I could not count them, if they did productive or not. Evaluating from my previews year, I guess none. However, I want to believe that I could do so many things in this year of the rum. I was watching “Once Upon a Time Series” and I could tell that what I’ve learned is to believe and have faith in all the things that I needed. I guess, I have to contemplate and meditate and ask myself from everything that had gone wrong, and things I couldn’t do. In this way I might find a better changes by next year. Live and Believe.

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TURNING POINT

I’ve never been used in counting days or whatever that comes my way. I guess, this 2014 was not the same with any kind of years that had passed. I can say it isn’t the fast pacing life that you could ever imagined, but changes did happened. I remember this following months;

January 2014 –     I was then very busy working out with my second course (i.e education)

February 2014 –    Attended a seminar in relation to Customer Service at Cagayan de Oro

March 2014 –        Continuing attending my school course

April 2014 –      Doing all the best I can to finish my requirements for the whole 6 subjects and even with the Field Studies instructed by our teachers in education.

May 2014 – Nothing happened much, I was kind of busy verifying our grades in St. Michael

June 2014 – I finally got my TOR in this course, and the next thing I did then was to file my papers for LET EXAM

July 2014 – I finally got out from COA and enter into the world of PagIBIG, and was assigned at Marawi Service Desk

August 2014 – It was then the 17th day of that month were I need to attend the Licensure Examination for Teachers. I was then so nervous that day, and everything keep dashing inside mind.

September 2014 – Nothing much happened here. I could say it’s my tranquil months.

October 2014 – on this month I received the result of the LET, and I’m thankful to God that I did pass! All my worries suddenly vanished and all was left was a thankful heart to God and to everyone for helping me out.

November 2014 – I was then so happy doing all my PRC related matters, and was then given the ticket for the big day “oath taking”

                For December 2014, I guess I want this month to be detailed, in the since that it was the current situation I was involved with until now. So, I was counting days from 1 to 12 day of December. Of course, I am not counting for the fact that it was then a Christmas, but it’s not. Christmas is not a practice in our religion, and I guess most of your guys, knows that Islam really don’t involve with this kind of celebration. Anyway, going back to my stories, while I was waiting, my parents decided to accompany me in the oath taking that was held last December 14, 2014 at Cagayan de Oro City. Before that day on December 13, 2014, we all went there, four of us to be exact (my parent, brother and of course yours truly). We did stayed at Tune Hotel. It was a very remarkable place. (In order for you to see what’s in this hotel, you can have a peek at the picture below.} I could say, I would waste some of my money staying in this hotel. Not only that you are comfortable with this hotel, and the staff were very accommodating but the building itself is very safe to anyone. If you are staying in Cagayan de Oro City, and would like to have a very comfortable stay in, I suggest to try their accommodation.

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                On the day of oath taking, I was then very glad saying to myself; at last, all my efforts didn’t go to waste and here I am taking an oath for the first time in my life.” I was with the other hundreds of LET PASSER enjoying the feeling of gratitude and hoping for a new start to begin with. One thing, I was then thankful as well was that, a friend of mine was there. Seeing her in there was kind of assuring that what was happening then was real and it’s not a dream.

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                After the ceremony, we had a lunch date together with my family. As I stare at them, I would say it was a great thing to have a family bonding once in a while. Hope to have another session of this family bonding.

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                The next thing happen is having fun with my co office mate last December 19, 2014. It was a merry day, going off to work and having the whole night to enjoy together with our office family. We celebrated this at Villa Verde near at Gaisano Mall. As I mention early, that we don’t celebrate Christmas, but for the sake of camaraderie, we did joined them for this one night of fun.

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                Usually, fun always countered with sadness of thy heart. After a few days, I was disheartened by the news that strikes me. I saw it coming, but I never expect it would that be easy. I am healing my heart now. I don’t know when will be the day my heart would find peace, but I’m hoping it would be so soon. However, for the meantime, as the year ends, I am looking forward for the things that will happen by next year. Hope it will be much colorful than it is. HAPPY NEW YEAR to Everyone!

Paying Back

How could I not forget the day a friend of mine told me the great news of passing the Licensure Examination for Teachers last August 17, 2014? If I am not mistaken I did write something about my fear of failing to the said examination, however, I am highly overjoyed when my hard work did paid off. All of this is a big big big thank you from the creator above. Ya Allah, I am really indeed grateful for another gift you’ve send to me. And now, I am happily to say that we will be having our Oath Taking Tomorrow at Liceo de University, Cagayan de Oro around 6:30 in the morning.

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                I am happy about this. I guess, God has its own way of saying that he is still there looking out for us. I don’t know how I will thank Him for everything. Yet what I already’ve been doing is nothing but selfishness. I am writing this stuff while my feeling is a little bit down for the fact that I haven’t done anything. Even towards my parent whose there all the way from the very beginning of my life. I could not ask for more, as long as my family is there, everything is worth the risk. To think of, ever since the day I started working, I didn’t help much my own parents, and didn’t even helped them from any financial burdens. I guess, I was caught up with my own selfishness of doing whatever I wanted to do which I guess, doesn’t do me much except paying my own school billings while I am at this second course. Looking back, I am somewhat guilty of not paying back anything to them, and somewhat doing another selfish thing by next year, which is the fulfillment of my own dream of going to the Land of the Rising Sun. Along in this current situation, I am thinking of switching job if God permits me to do so. I could not support my parents and my brother from the income I have now. I fear that someday, I might need an emergency money to use for something crucial. I am the eldest and my brother is only 10 years younger than me, and mostly I don’t know if somebody or someone will help me by the time I will need it. Beforehand, I need to look for some ways to fully realize this. I don’t know if I can, but I’ll try. My qualification in teaching is not enough since my major from my undergrad isn’t related to education. So working on this thing will be going to square one. I don’t have teaching experience, and still have that weaknesses, but I need to try. Wish me good luck guys! I will post something soon in here.

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Dodging Fantasy, and walking into the reality!

I guess, the time has come in order for me to end it. It’s not healthy anymore. I would say, I am currently indignant with my marriage situation I am in, but the fact that it’s not working, I have to stop it. Several girls in this world really would like to have a lifetime partner. A prince that will save them from the distress of being single, and love that a girl ever wanted. A happy every after effect, that’s what we are looking for. However, facing the harsh reality, happily ever after is not for everyone, just like me. I guess, I expect too much, and I am craving for an affection from a guy but it was dreadful. Love that is one sided and no proof of getting back would only put me in too much pain. Being martyr is not an option for me. I’ve been doing this, like for 4 years of this marriage, but I am only hurting myself in this kind of set up. I can’t take the pain anymore, and being so negative toward myself caused me too much. A collateral damage for my act of denying that someday, somewhere, miracles would happen for us. However, what Nora Aunor’s state in one of her movies: “Walang himala, nasa tao ang himala!” (There is no miracle, only human do the miracles” I deceived myself from the illusion of miracles. A miracle that he would love me, and somehow forget that girl. But some guys do really choose what their heart felt, even breaking the law. So, I did say to myself “Okay, let’s end it. Move on from our own pace.” I wouldn’t deny that maybe at some point, I’ve done something wrong. This might be the reason; I never had been into a relationship, and I never had the chance to experience the boy-girl relationship, and that’s why ended up with nothing. Being single woman is the most appropriate for me. Yeah, I might be selfish in this kind of thinking, yet I am protecting myself from going to another relationship that would end into oblivion. Is it wrong to be born as NBCB? (No Boyfriend since Birth) I guess not. It is only that one’s heart cannot be altered once it loves someone else. I don’t care about what other people says, all that matter now is letting things in order to free everyone that is involve with this parental marriage. A marriage that keeps his mother in pain, my parents who always think about my feeling, and relatives who are concern about us. I guess, once I cut the string off, it would set everyone else free. He can marry the person he loves, and free me from tying into a doubtful future. This is for the best, “That’s what I am thinking about!”

As much as possible, I wouldn’t be so negative on this post, and even say something from this pain I am feeling now, but rather, I would like to share with you guys the positive wisdom I did get from this marriage.

  1. I did find that love is such a wonderful thing. It’s no wonder that some people are addict finding this one, as it makes you happy. It’s like every day is a beautiful day. It even gives you the positive vibes, putting a smile in your cheek, and looking forward seeing that someone in the morning.
  2. I did realize my weakness, and the person who I really am.
  3. I also see the super ego deep inside me, and that I don’t have the most control of it.

I guess, that’s the high light of positive marriage life I had. However, the pain and the stress I’ve gone through is something extraordinary. I never had a painful experience in my entire life than this one, and it then follow after the other. If you’re going to ask me either I will go with the same experience or not, I guess that’s enough. I would gladly accept the fact of being single ‘til the end. Yet, I am not closing any door since Allah (saw) always has something that He destined for us to do. To tell you the truth, I don’t really know how will I coop up with this thing, but I guess I just let time heal itself. Compared to the previews years, now, my heart is somewhat calmer than the previews. I am happy that my freedom will be returned to me, yet sad because He was my FIRST LOVE. A fairy tale that came so soon, and ended so soon. Life is always imperfect, but thanks God I am alive, and I have my family, and friends whose there no matter what.

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Live life to the Fullest

Business that is ECONOMICALLY affordable, and easy to SELL!

Hi Guys! Business is business. However, most of the time choosing the best business to let yourself get involved with is very crucial. I’ve been into some business, not many but few of them, in order to gain some experience as well to gain something. I’ve tried other networking business which you can see the good side of it, but sooner did I find out that: “Ah, it’s so expensive. My clients couldn’t afford the product itself”. There are those brand where you sell their products at higher rate which even you could not afford it. I usually brought myself in this kind of situation, where in, I am registering myself to a certain brand and then later on, I would realize: “OMG! I can’t have enough money to buy some of its product as to test it.” Usually, some clients would easily ask: “Is this product of yours really works or not?” Somehow, you as a seller, will be questioning yourself either the product you are selling is compatible with the need of your customer or not, since it’s not the typically product that you will see in some commercial ads. This become worsen if you don’t really know the product itself, and even didn’t test it as to try it. That’s the most dangerous one. Excuse me, if I am becoming anti-something with the other brand, but let’s face it; too expensive products will make your target clients to doubt either she/he is going to buy your products or not. Due to crisis today, one can expect that most of the people go in a practical thing that they can use in their daily living, and most convenient to themselves. Even I do, as much as I am concern, I would prefer something practical that I can buy for my money. I am already through with trying other networking that would only cause my pocket in a 0 balance state and sometimes it even goes down to negative, which is a bad sign in business.

Last few days ago, I browse into some businesses that would perfectly suite my current situation. I am working in my hometown, as well as managing our mini store. I was thinking that if only I could find a certain business that could relate with our sari-sari store, then it would be best. So far, I look into some of business yet nothing really matches with the wants I wanted. Most of them is not practical, and even hard enough to sell. Most probably it would cause our store to go down if I choose some of those products and networking online without second thoughts. From this experience, I do realize that diving into a business should be handled very carefully as to protect your investment. As my father always says, money is not something you will just pick up on the road and use, but it is something to be earned through your own effort, skill and ability. This is why, after going through a lot of searching through net I found ONE that really matches my interest. This business is called PLANET MOBILE BUSINESS CLUB.

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In this business, you will not have a hard time selling this product for it is already known in the market. Some of this products are shown below: (put some pictures below this)

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Why did I choose this? I don’t know to you guys, but the main reason I did choose this is that, it is economically affordable since it is already known in the market. It’s not hard to introduce it to people. If they want some testimonials and other thing they want to know, they could easily look at it from any sources. As for us, who owns a sari-sari store, it could also benefit us as most of the product in this business is something we usually buy in whole sale in order to re-sell it. In this kind of business, it is like hitting two birds with one stone.

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You can also visit their website through http://www.planetmobiletech.com.ph and even get a lot of information. You can also contact me through 09279940053 or email me at jomairahmulay@hotmail.com for any inquires. I will keep you posted in here about this business especially to those people who are visiting my site. Thank you and always take care of yourself, guys!

A Clan Reunion

OMG! It’s been six days that I haven’t done my assignment here on Ultimate Blog Challenge. I have been trying the past few days, but since we have a slow connection here in our place, it is somewhat kind of irritating when this sort of thing happens. Sorry my dear readers for this undeniable regret of unposting written words to be shared to the whole wide world. ^_^

Anyhow, when I was typing this statements, I was hoping that this one will be posted on this 11th day of the UBC. So, here we go, the thing I am going to share with you guys was our family reunion last October 6, 2014. Here in our country, we did had our holiday on that day for the Muslim Celebration of Edil Adha. It was fortunate that this celebration had be fall on two days before. So, we took the opportunity to enjoy this day together with our family, as spearheaded by my mother’s first cousin. Oh! By the way, the clan that I am telling here is from my mother side, specifically to her father, my maternal grandfather. I was not really into this reunion at first and wanted to stay at home. I was thinking then that it would make sense if I’ll do this since I’ll be tending our store for the whole day, and sale some goods even a little. After thinking, I did considered my mother’s cousin’s effort to convince us to join on the said reunion. So I finally decided just to join in, and not to be scolded by him when I don’t go. Will, I guess, it doesn’t hurt much if I hadn’t go there by any chance. So far, I couldn’t get every details into words. For this I will be posting selected pictures that will totally give you a scene to the said reunion. (I didn’t mentioned our family clan on this blog, since I am expecting for them not to see my blog..hehe unless they will). So, here are some pictures to be shared:

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Before we leave, we were waiting for someone. Since they didn’t arrive early on, we just played along to take a picture while waiting at our gate way together with my auntie and nieces.

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After an hour of travelling more than 30 kilometers away from home, we did arrive at our rendevouz point, at Villa Lacida, Linamon, Lanao del Norte. Many of my relatives were there, and for so many years of not seeing them, this year was our another meeting for such a long time. The adults were somehow their in order to listen to speeches on the prepared program by our relatives. I was their sitting at the last end of the table. Guess, where I am? Hehe (I guess, you couldn’t..hehe)

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While the young adults, and elders where in the program meeting.The young ones where doing there own thing. And that is, to have FUN together with everyone! ^_^

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I was a little bit shocked seeing those young ones all in one. Some of those were my nephews and niece from my cousins, who brought their children along. It is such a wonderful thing seeing them lively.

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While taking pictures of the people around, I did caught a bunch of people who were in different trip on that day. I guess, this people were an athlete players, playing along the sea shore.

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I did capture this picture, and I did love this one. Seeing a happy children while swimming gives a positive vibes.

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Row! Row! Your boat! A Big sister and two little brothers riding on a boat. ^_^ Hope they did enjoy the scene and the ride!

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While I was sitting there taking my rest from taking pictures. I thought of taking Aisha a picture. Her first one, was kind of bad since she was serious. So I took another picture, telling her to smile. She did try to smile, but instead of smiling she did showed this expression that you see. Isn’t it cute??? Hehehe..Cute! Cute! Litte niece

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Haha! Love this picture as well, a snap shot from the person whose going to have a nice swim.

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This is the main game! I love this picture since it shows many expression. These people who was holding a man in his orange t-shirt were all my cousins. Either you like it or not, if they catch you, they will hold you and throw you on the sea side. Im so thankful that they were doing this only to boys or else, I am sure I am an unlucky one if they did this to girls!

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Reunion is a good thing for families to held. In our case, the family decided to take this reunion twice a month of every year in order to close the bond between relatives that has been lost for a long time and amend those misunderstanding issue between each other. I guess, its not a wrong thing to be in here. The only thing is that I was not that so close with them, but I am glad seeing them healthy and strong. Allah bless everyone! And see you soon in the next grand!

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Four things I Adore

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I usually stay at home, and most of the time I’m alone. In the long run, I got used being like this. I feel calmer when I am at this state. I felt I want to do this most of the time, but even though I wanted to I still need to step outside to be with the rest of the world. In any ways, there were so many kinds of human being in this world. I guess, I am one of those people who usually gets the act up as a loner or something since I feel kind of like it. I want to try to be as outgoing person as possible, but as far I extend myself from doing it, it just can’t. One can surpass their limitation, but some couldn’t. In the education side, there were those type of leaners. Out of those kinds, I can associate myself as an Intrapersonal learner. As I see it, it is somewhat disadvantage, because as a person who having this were somehow being selfish as I look at it, because you do your things based at your own pace. Your concentration is good when you are alone. I cannot deny this fact because as I see it, it is. You don’t want it, but in the end, it’s my innate nature.

                There are those people who hold a very unique qualities that other people don’t have yet they are blessed. I guess, it is an aspect that most of the people envy them. Personally, if you’d asked me, I would tell I do, I don’t deny it. However, instead of envying them, it is like I more of appreciate and adore those people who have these kind of attitudes:

  1. Those people who is persistent to do something;
  2. Those people have a good social skills;
  3. Those people who can carry themselves anytime;
  4. And the most important thing is, those people who are religious enough and really devoted in the Religion Islam.

The mentioned words were something I really do admire in a certain person. How much more if they have it all. I would say, it’s pretty awesome.

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