Homosexuality has been well-thought-out as deviant behavior throughout human history. People cannot remove this kind of behavior towards one person who is involved into this kind of act. Christian, Muslim and other religion condemn this homosexuality, but then again we cannot judge one person just for having this kind of behavior.
I did interviewed a close relative of being a gay and he told me everything I want to know. First of all, his alias name is “Gorgeous” (won’t like to state his name for privacy purposes) a first cousin of mine. I asked him if this deviancy was innate, and he told me that, it’s true. When he a was a child, most of his companions were all girls. In his growing up years he looks up to them. He observed the entire action the way girls do at a tender age, and later on he was influenced. During those time, he assumed that being with them, and acting like them is a norm. He ended up desiring to be like them.
Secondly, I asked him if ever he run into a problem of being a gay. He answered, “ My parents doesn’t want me to be like this, but what can I do? This is me. Hence, I feel that my kinsfolks hated me since I am a gay. Someday I’ll be someone that they’re going to be proud of and prove them that I am capable of doing things.” In Muslim communities, homosexuality is not accepted for they see this act as an immoral. Nevertheless, for the people who are engaged to this kind of doing feels that they are just being real to themselves.
Thirdly, I asked him if being a gay has given him anything or any benefits. He then replied, “It gives me the chance to be known in campus. I gained a lot of friends and made many memories to keep. Self-confidence is the key factor from all of this. I gained this for being myself, causing everything to fall to its rightful place.” I envy my cousin on this part. He has this guts and attitude that lures people toward his unique characteristic.
The Interviewer and the interviewee, which is me, is related by blood. Him, being a gay, as I see it doesn’t cause any problem. If he wants to be a gay then that’s his choice. We cannot force something to a person, he/she doesn’t want to. The only thing I can possibly do for him is to support and understand every endeavor his trying to accomplish.
This article was created a years ago. Gorgeous is not your typically gay who will wear a lot of makeup, have a thick red lips, and act excessively. Yet, he does wear in a very fashionable manner. Comparing from then to now, Gorgeous change 180 degrees. What do I mean? He ended up choosing being a man. He does once told us that “Let me do things, as what I am doing now. Time will come I’ll get bored acting this way” and he did. Though he did changed, yet his gesture still exist, act softly or” mahinhin” in tagalog.
What is Depression? As stated from the meaning from the Merriam-Webster Dictionary, this monstrous word means a serious medical condition in which a person feels very sad, hopeless, and unimportant and often is unable to live in a normal way. I have read so many articles in relation to this sickness, and many of them says different kinds. I don’t know what is real or not, nevertheless I had seen and observed, it is in did an illness that causes havoc to one self. I did wrote this issue as I’ve seen Robin WILLIAM’S article about his death a few days ago. It is so sad to know such guy who boost with energy in giving hundreds of people from across the oceans a laugh that meant to forget their own problems, only to find out that he has been fighting his own selves for how many years. Another man, was that guy who was an actor from the GLEE Club series, who seems to kill his self. Together with this was also Whitney Houston, who caused her life due to drugs. It seems a lot of Americans where really into drugs and alcohol when they feel depressed. And 100% not only them, who suffer from this ill-mannered coping mechanism of depression, because there are many people around the globe who are involved in this kind of action.
Do I have the right to blame them or not? I guess, I don’t have the right to blame them in causing this menace in their own life since each and every one of us have different kinds of problems in life. Our generation in today’s age, we could manage to do whatever we wanted through technology, unlike the people of the past generation. Then along with this advancement, where the problem started, we became more dependent and many situations arises along with the mentality of each and every one. Many of us were gifted with a talent of coping up this improvement, but some humans don’t. It is a sad thing to say that many of the people who don’t know how to handle theirs selves ended up by bringing their own death. Unlike, harikiri in Japanese who kills their self because of disgrace, but this one wasn’t about honor. They’ve said that an act of suicide was a selfish act for the person who is committing this matter, but they didn’t know some of this people were fighting this as far as they did remembered in defeating their own problems. I could say it is hard when your enemy is your own self.
I could not tell if what I’ve felt before and maybe now is somewhat in this kind of form, but I did felt this. I tell you, it is something you’ll never wanted to wish for. Why? Because a total negativity causing yourself a pain like your into the depth of hell. One feeling of this was like a constant feeling of being worthless. You feel like you don’t wanted to wake up every morning and telling yourself “How I wish I never waked up”. Another feeling of this monster was, every hour of your life, you feel uneasy and your health were being eaten until your mind is giving you an order to kill yourself. The worst thing here was, when you are at that point where you wanted to escape something but then again there is no way out, this moment will drag your brain out from thinking, “death is the only way”. When you feel this moment, you will feel shaky and find a solution to escape from something you wanted to escape for. Feeling all this kind of emotions is a one way or another causing devastating event in one’s self. In the religious side of story, they were saying that if you have a weakness in thy heart, and weak in believing in the power of God, they’ve said you were being punished. In some point I question this one, I did one time asked, how come? Did I do something wrong to undergo in such thing? Upon feeling all the negativity in some point in my life, I’ve reflected with those stuff that I have done before. I found out so many weakness in myself upon searching for an answer why I started feeling this kind of emotion. As I searched for an answer, it feels like I’ve been scanning pages to pages and learning this and that. One thing I did learned was, there were those attitudes and some other things within thyself that you could not accept that it is within you. You don’t like to admit that limitations are embodied in you, and that everything is uncontrollable. I’ve cried for so many days, and some answers about my other side of problems were being revealed to me. I don’t regret from knowing, and I’ve come across knowing myself better. I could say my religion saved me in one way or another. In Islam, killing one self is a TABOO. IF you kill yourself, you will not be judged in the life after, but instead you will directly be sent to HELL with no further ado. In my religion, alcohol and drugs are prohibited to intake since it causes oneself a great deal of destroying oneself little by little. There was a saying as well that it is your responsibility to take care of your own body, and you will be asked in the next life how did you used your life, and from thinking this question I wouldn’t like to answer some negative things.
Those people who came across with the so called alcohol and drugs were by mean being harder to themselves. Yes, you will find yourself forgotten those wary feeling inside after taking them, nevertheless this emotion were just a temporary feeling that an expiration will be set in an hour. Due to its limitation, they intake and intake until they were addictive and cannot see the point of no return of going back. Maybe, indeed some survive from this addiction, but most of them cannot. Psychologists, therapist and another drugs can heal them in a minute, but then again it’s just temporary. The one who will decide is the victim itself on how he/she will instruct his/her own will. People can give them advice, but never can they make that victims let them do what they wanted. We are innate with the termed WILL. A decision that was being entrusted to us by the High Living with the power of knowledge and how we used them already depend upon us, as a human. I believe that everything have its own reason. Maybe, it is a sign to understand ourselves better with this problems, but over abusing and reacting in such a manner that will cost you more will just do no good.
Last Sunday, I was thinking to spend my Eid day here at Iligan City, but somehow after I gave some thought last Monday, suddenly I felt that I’d be lonely if I spend this special day only by myself. That Monday afternoon, I went home while the rain was pouring non-stop. The cars were buzzing and the road was so wet, like it does going to rain forever and everybody seems to be stuck in one place due to this rain. Back then inside the car while we were going back to Marawi City, I couldn’t help but to fell asleep. No food the whole day because I did fast (which is the 9th day of Dhul Hijja), and No sleep at all. My body was heavy. After 45 minutes of travelling, I am thankful that I did come back home safe and sound. I directly went to my room, put on my PAJAMAS, and directly fell asleep.
The next morning, I am very thankful that my mom woke me earlier this 4:30 in the morning. It was quite a bit noisy because every minute you’re going to hear those guns from every side, like a bazooka when it’s New Year. This became a habit in our home town when edil fitr and edil adha’s celebrations were on sight. The people were warned about this because of fear that someone might hurt by doing so, but I guess they don’t mind these warnings since until now they are doing it. It’s their merry making I guess, which is not an Islamic practice but a tradition in one society.
To give you an overview about this edil adha, the following text is given to the viewer for their readings:
Eid al-Adha (Arabic: عيد الأضحى ʿīd al-aḍḥā, “festival of the sacrifice”), also called Feast of the Sacrifice, the Major Festival, the Greater Eid, Kurban Bayram (Turkish: Kurban Bayramı; Serbo-Croat-Bosnian: kurban-bajram), or Eid e Qurban (Persian: عید قربان), is an important religious holiday celebrated by Muslims worldwide to honour the willingness of the prophet Ibrahim (Abraham) to sacrifice his young first-born son Ismail (Ishmael)a as an act of submission to Allah’s command and his son’s acceptance to being sacrificed, before Allah intervened to provide Abraham with a Lamb to sacrifice instead. In the lunar Islamic calendar, Eid al-Adha falls on the 10th day of Dhu al-Hijjah and lasts for four days. In the international Gregorian calendar, the dates vary from year to year, drifting approximately 11 days earlier each year.
Eid al-Adha is the latter of the two Eid holidays, the former being Eid al-Fitr. The basis for the Eid al-Adha comes from the 196th verse of the 2nd sura of the Quran. The word “Eid” appears once in the 5th sura of the Quran, with the meaning “solemn festival”.
Like Eid al-Fitr, Eid al-Adha begins with a Sunnah prayer of two rakats followed by a sermon (khuṭbah). Eid al-Adha celebrations start after the descent of the Hajj from Mount Arafat, a hill east of Mecca. Ritual observance of the holiday lasts until sunset of the 12th day of Dhu al-Hijjah. Eid sacrifice may take place until sunset on the 13th day of Dhu al-Hijjah. The days of Eid have been singled out in the Hadith as “days of remembrance”. The days of Tashriq are from the Fajr prayer of the 9th of Dhul Hijjah up to the Asr prayer of the 13th of Dhul Hijjah (5 days and 4 nights). This equals 23 prayers: 5 on the 9th-12th, which equal 20, and 3 on the 13th.
So I took some pictures from this event because usually as a viewer, we always like to see captured moments: